geared

The anger has boiled over and seeped through. Its just being a constant problem fixer. Over and over...and all I want to do is scream. Fuck them fuck this fuck that. I just want to roll into a blanket and cocoon myself. No contact. I try and say the words but from brain to mouth I fuck it all up and I know it. So trying to explain myself just makes it worse. I'd rather keep quiet and take the wrath. I can write it all down but its like a brain stroke when I try to speak. I'm so fucking drained with this shit. This is why I dont want any part of them. Just causes sooo much fucking drama, for everyone. Hes got to figure it out on his own and now I have to just breathe. Maybe someday it'll all make sense for them. Until then I no longer give a fuck.