Pretender

Enjoy your mindfuck. Although you can't enjoy anything since you have denied all your true feelings. You have locked away your inner self and left a shell, a sleeper cell with fainned emotions. You are lying to yourself with every moment you allow this to continue. And torturing your soul as it screams with sorrow. Since you have betrayed the only thing that's important..you. There's nothing left to do but to cling onto what little insecurity you have left.
I'm so sad for you, but I think your even sadder for yourself.
There's still hope you'll shake yourself awake.