I'm laying on my pillow drenched in my own tears knowing you'll never come to see if I'm ok tonight. I've never felt so alone. I can't shake this sadness and the guilt is tearing me up inside. I hate you and love you at this moment. It's been 2 weeks and your acting like nothing even happened. Did it happen? I feel destroyed. I can't shake the pain .. that feeling after it happened where I could actually feel the emptiness in my stomach. Everyone keeps telling me it'll be ok.
I want to hide from everyone carve you open and crawl inside. But the closer I want to be to you the more I'm pushing you away. So now they're playing our song....Fuck it