what is going on?! i havent been on for awhile and then when i finally do its a meltdown. i'm sorry i am literally jaw dropped. We have lost a very important soul and the world is poorer for it. so now because the only access to the net i have is at the library i must hurry home to call and old friend because i think right now her needs come first. then maybe i'll find the right words for you, cuz i KNOW we're freaking out. shit!