an interesting motivation....i got a job, what has become of me. i'm chugging the big gunner rockstar contemplating; nothing like making love first thing in the morning sets a glorious tone for the day. what day is today for they seem to be running away with the wind sacrificing themselves unto me for what? i do not know. my eyelids are weighing heavily on me head but to sleep would be a nightmare.

as i sit here pondering of much needed creative outlets i could engage i wonder where does my garden grow, i mean everyone deserves a bit of earth so shall i stake but where and what to grow....mmmm sunflowers and black lotus indeed.

i found a magazine page amongst the millions of treasures i obtain where it came from i do not know but seemed dated one article was about bruce willis and how their are cave tours to see celebrities and as i scan this weird find one advertisement completely catches my eye calling me * seahorse fun purchase your own aquarium of seahorses with a pregnant male and a female soon you should have a wonderful tank of a seahorse family. there was 3 options depending on how much your willing to spend for your loved creatues who come from the sea. i want one i want seahorses so bad i can already picture the hours i will cherish watching the miricles of life right before my eyes all to my dismay i think it was from 19 80 something either way i dont think i can get my mail order seahorse dream.

*sigh